Some of the Journey

Recently, Brian posted on Facebook. What he posted was really vulnerable and very real. He shared that he has lost 25 pounds. And, unlike some of the bragging and posing and facade on Facebook, he was sharing the real thing. Oddly, not one person commented. Not one person aside from me even pressed the "like" button. It was a beautiful post, full of gratitude for the work of the Holy Spirit in him and the joy of seeing this weight loss happen.

I haven't shared in my blog about any of Brian's weight loss efforts and challenges because until now, this was his private journey. It's exciting to be able to share a little now, even though vulnerability is still scary.

He has walked a long road when it comes to weight loss. For those of you who actually "get it" when it comes to weight struggles, his body does not want to lose weight. Weight loss does not come easily for him. He gets plenty of good advice about how he should not eat fast food or dessert or drink soda, usually from other people who do all of those things and don't struggle with their weight. Oh, did I mention he gave up soda years ago? It's also been widely assumed over the years that he does not exercise. So wrong. My man actually enjoys exercise and has exercised regularly for years. I guarantee he exercises harder than just about anyone. In this house, I am the one who does not enjoy exercise and has to force myself to do it. Brian, on the other hand, is a beast about exercise.

So this has left me watching his journey, his struggle, and his discouragement for years. But, because I have a front row seat, I know him like no one else. I didn't see a man who would look better if he lost weight. I have always seen my tall, dark, and handsome man who chose me and can still melt me when he smiles at me from across the room. I have seen a man who has failed and struggled and earnestly sought God in his weakness. He has taught me what it looks like to persevere. He's taught me how not to lash out at people who amuse themselves by pointing out someone else's weakness. He's the one who gets me out the door for a walk or trip to the gym.

I have also been given the gift of being Brian's biggest earthly fan. I've gone from a wife who thought cooking was beneath her (maybe a story for another blog) to a wife who will find out what food he wants and needs, and make sure he has it. I GET to be a helpmeet. There is such privilege here.

Brian still has weight to lose, but in the last few months, he has lost 25 pounds. Unless you have ever experienced the defeat of a weight struggle, this probably doesn't sound too impressive. But for us? We are seriously pumped about what God is doing around here. We continue to trust God in this. Even recently, Brian ate a bowl of cereal and a few more calories than usual and gained 5 pounds in 1 week. This is not an easy journey, but I'm in it every step of the way with my best friend. God's strength in our weakness--stunning.