There, peeping above the cloud-wrack above a dark tor high up in the mountains, Sam saw a white star twinkle for awhile. The beauty of it smote his heart, as he looked up and out of the forsaken land, and hope returned to him. For like a shaft, clear and cold, the thought pierced him that in the end the Shadow was only a small and passing thing; there was light and high beauty forever beyond its reach. J.R.R. Tolkien

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Worst Fear

I think my worst fear is that I will find out that the foundation of my life is something or someone else besides Jesus Christ. I want him to be my one and only so desperately. Then I see the telltale signs of idolatry in me. The problem is that when God reveals idolatry, it comes at such a high price--at least for me. He usually has to take away what I treasure most. He has done that in me more than once. Dreams, people, places. Have I learned yet? Or will I suffer another grievous loss and find out yet again that my faith is still misplaced?

My heart is so heavy today. I wish I could explain how much I want Jesus to be my greatest treasure and how it grieves me when I see evidence of where he isn't.

Something new has begun in me recently. God is always good to lead me to the next place. This place is called the path to godliness. I would like to share what he's teaching, but it is still forming as I study and pray.
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  1. CrystalJune 17, 2010 at 7:31 PM

    I'm starting a new book...praying God's word by Beth Moore...the first chapter is about overcoming the stronghold of idolatry, we'll see what it has to say...

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