Changes

In the last few days, I've been thinking on some changes.

Elijah started playing preschool soccer. That's a change. His first sport.

Joseph lost another tooth. More change.

The cardiologist decided 88/64 was too low for my blood pressure and I got to stop taking my blood pressure medicine. Now I'm not insanely dizzy. That's a change.

I have developed an intolerance to a second cholesterol medicine and will now have to work out a third option with my cardiac care people. Another change.

My house, while never spotless, is definitely more spotty than it used to be.

I sleep a lot. That's a change.

I have stepped back from most of my church ministry-related activites, after realizing a typical week for me was 20-30 hours of various church-related activities. I remain committed to prayer, gathering with other believers, sending notes and e-mails of encouragement, AWANA Cubbies, helping Brian with whatever he needs--most everything else has been temporarily suspended. That's a change.

I also made a permanent change. I resigned from my church office job where I was sort of a hybrid staff/volunteer finance person. I knew it was time. I knew it was the right thing to do. It was still hard. People I care about are having to pick up the slack I've left. I'm usually the one picking up the slack. To be on the other side is a change.

I keep reading my Bible. I keep looking up at my favorite sight--the sky. No change either place. I sure hope all this uncertainty, bouncing and tossing around, just bounces and tosses me closer to the Unchanging One.